| OH PLEASE SAY THIS WORKS!!!!!! |
[Apr. 19th, 2004|05:42 pm] |
[ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<img [...] marky!>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] <img src=C:\My Documents\My Pictures\valentinespic alt=ME AND MARKY! *hopefully this works*
if it doesnt im gonan be mad!!! GGRRRRRR >=( |
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| O MAN! IM SO IN LOVE!!!!! lol i write so much about mark.... |
[Apr. 19th, 2004|04:39 pm] |
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Wats up journal? well i havent updated in a long ass time, its cause ive been out with my parents and then spent the last week of spring break with my baby! I got to spend the nite at his house, we watched movies and hung out and just enjoyed eachother company! I love waking up next to the person i love! its so great to look over and see that special someone right next to u and kno that their all urs and no one elses!!! I am still kinda depressed right now tho, i think im love sick, i cant see marky today, but its ok. 2morrow is our 5 months!! YAY!!! were gonna go out to dinner. Man i love him so much! i hope i never ever break up with him! hes such a great boyfriend!!! i dont think i could ask for anything better! but ya, this week has been a good week. BUT SCHOOL FUCKING SUCKS! i hate it so much! i fell asleep in every single class of mine, i hate waking up early. And get this, im so pissed off right now cause im not allowed to talk on my cell phone past 10, how gay is that...? my uncle said that i "need my sleep" when really it doesnt bother me at all, i dont fucking get them sometimes, i swear to god! they make me really mad sometimes, but i cant say anything cause their giving me alot more then i had asked for, but at the same time they treat me like a lil kid. Im almost 18...give me a break! please! |
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[Apr. 14th, 2004|11:06 am] |
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AWWWWWWWW how precious! heheh I LOVE MY BABY SO MUCH!i got back from Lancaster on Easter then i went and saw mark for a few mins it was so great to see him and kiss him again! i hate being away from him that long! His mom and step dad bought me lil gift certificates and got me a lil easter basket! it was so cute! i really like his family, i feel like its my second family! aiight im gonna jet, gotta take a shower...Later |
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| *ACHOO* |
[Mar. 31st, 2004|09:04 pm] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
| [ | music |
| | GG Allin-Drink, Fight, and FUCK! | ] |
Damn Allergies! i cant stop sneezing! anyways...3 more days!!! YAY! i cant wait to see everyone! its gonna be great! ill only be gone for a week, but its better than nothing. I wrote a really nice but depressing poem for my poetry class last nite, i turned it in today and i got 2nd place out of the class....my o my i feel so special with my little ribbon! hehe but ya anyways, im gonna go lay down now, and take some claritin or something. its taken me about 4 mins to write out all of this stuff and ive already sneezed like 7 times! woe is me! and heres my poem i shall share with all of u...hope u like it!!!
I GOT FLOWERS TODAY
I got flowers today It wasn't my birthday or any other special day. We had our first argument last night, and he said a lot of cruel things that really hurt me. I know he is sorry and didn't mean the things he said, because he sent me flowers today
I got flowers today It wasn't our anniversary or any other special day. Last night, he threw me into a wall and started to choke me, It seemed like a nightmare. I couldn't believe it was real. I woke up this morning sore and bruised all over. I know he was sorry because he sent me flowers today
I got flowers today It wasn't Mother's Day or any other special day. Last night, he beat me up again, and it was much worse than all the other times. If I leave him, what will I do? How will I take care of my kids? I'm afraid of him and scared to leave. But I know he must be sorry because he sent me flowers today.
I got flowers today. Today was a very special day. It was the day of my funeral. Last night he finally killed me. He beat me to death. If only I had gathered enough courage and strength to leave him, I would not have gotten flowers today |
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| this is hard... |
[Mar. 24th, 2004|08:40 pm] |
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man it sucks so bad not being near my brother and sister. im missing out so much with them right now. i mean its pretty damn sad when u dont even kno the age of ur sister or wat grade shes in...i literally broke down thinking that shes becoming a little lady and im missing all of this! they need me so much and i feel so helpless...im stuck and dont kno wat to do..and i dont like bothering people with my problems so i guess typing them down is ok...but it still doesnt solve anything. im scared that im gonna miss out on everything in their lives...they mean so much to me and i never really realised it until we all were seperated...im supposed to be the older sister that they go to when they have problems or when they cant talk to my parents... and im failing at that. I just hope that they understand wats going on and dont hold anything agaisnt me...i would hate for that to happen...god i love them so much.... |
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| this is hard... |
[Mar. 24th, 2004|08:40 pm] |
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man it sucks so bad not being near my brother and sister. im missing out so much with them right now. i mean its pretty damn sad when u dont even kno the age of ur sister or wat grade shes in...i literally broke down thinking that shes becoming a little lady and im missing all of this! they need me so much and i feel so helpless...im stuck and dont kno wat to do..and i dont like bothering people with my problems so i guess typing them down is ok...but it still doesnt solve anything. im scared that im gonna miss out on everything in their lives...they mean so much to me and i never really realised it until we all were seperated...im supposed to be the older sister that they go to when they have problems or when they cant talk to my parents... and im failing at that. I just hope that they understand wats going on and dont hold anything agaisnt me...i would hate for that to happen...god i love them so much.... |
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| SOOO tired! |
[Mar. 20th, 2004|11:25 pm] |
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| |  horny | ] |
| [ | music |
| | GO TO SLEEEPPP GO TO SLEEEPPPP | ] |
Man i had a long ass day...im so tired right now i dont even kno y im writing in this thing...well i had a good nite...went to some stupid ass jock party so i left as soon as i could...and i went out to breakfast with mark and his mom and sister...i also dyed her hair for her..looks really good if i might say so myself hehe...ya anyways...my day was cool, alrighty its time for my head and my pillow to have some "alone" time...their going to sleep...MMM SLEEPPPP! later ya'all! |
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| WTF IS UP WITH THAT? |
[Mar. 15th, 2004|07:31 pm] |
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| |  bitchy | ] |
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| | Macabre-Zodiac | ] |
OMG dude....y do girls have to be so fucking jealous of other chicks? i dont get it at all..you can be friends with their BF and have it be perfectly harmless...and then BAM once the chick gets the wrong idea...its all over...God damn i hate drama!....i mean come on...grow up! grrrrrrrrrr i have so much steam coming out of my ears my room is filling up! but anyways....uhmmm....i went out to Berkley this weekend with mark and his mommy....it was fun...a new experience for me...i cant wait to see my bro and sister! yay! but i dont want to leave mark...its ok..he can handle it, if my bro and sis can handle like 7 months, im sure mark can handle a week...lol...alrighty then off i go...nothing too much more to write and plus i gotta piss like a race horse! C-YA! |
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[Mar. 12th, 2004|10:52 pm] |
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♥Kayla Bandy and ♥Mark Kilcrease | - Likely to conceive a pair of happy children.
- Wish to chat nearly everywhere.
- Dance terribly and have plenty of fun.
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AWWWWWWW HOW PRECIOUS!!!!!! heheh! |
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| man...today was cool but it sucked too... |
[Mar. 12th, 2004|10:31 pm] |
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| | worried | ] |
| [ | music |
| | AC/DC- If you want blood, you got it! | ] |
O MAN im so scared for my brother right now... i dont kno wat to do...not being down there for him and helping him out makes me feel like a bad sister...i dont kno wat to do cause im the oldest and im supposed to be a good role model but im so far away from him so it sucks cause i cant do anything but talk to him and it seems like talking really isnt doing the trick...i need advice...i want him to straighten up....but theres not too much i can do...just sit back and hope for the best for him...on another note...i hung out with marky today...i love cuddling and talking about things and not having to worry about drama...i love spending time with him...i feel soooo good when im with him and today was so awesome..i felt like i was on clouds or something.. anyways..i love him! just thought u should kno haha
YAY! April 3rd im going to see my family and friends...im only gonna be down there a week but hey its better then nothing! so if u wanna chill and u live in Simi or moorpark or lancaster or the 20 million other places ive lived....hit me up! alright im gonna take off now...talk to ya all later BUH BYE! |
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| THIS SUCKS! |
[Mar. 8th, 2004|08:08 pm] |
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| |  sick | ] |
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| | Rich Kids on LSD-Hard Core Drug Abuse | ] |
O man...I really hate being sick....I dont kno the meaning of a little cold, when I get sick I get it bad! I must have sneezed like 50 times today...maybe even more...
I havent seen Mark all day, I miss him already! But tomorrow is always another day...its good to have someone you kno that cares for you and loves you and will help you out along lifes paths...
I might be going down to Palmdale for Spring Break. Im looking forward to spending a week or so down there, me and my brother need to talk some more..I havent been there enough for him recently so this is going to be some more bonding time for us..It should be nice..
ok I need to go and sleep for a bit...this medication I took for allergies too is kicking in and i cant stay awake!!! *****ACHOO**** |
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| WOW |
[Mar. 6th, 2004|03:22 am] |
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WOW! i had so much fun tonight...the STFU show was crazy! Crazy ass people and everything! I went with mark and kaylen! we got fucking lost! i had to be home at 1 and we got off the wrong exit and ended up in san francisco...good thing my god parents werent awake...my ass would have been grass...but i still gotta wait till i get up in the morning to see if they heard me come in at 2...but hopefully ill be cool and nothing too bad will go down...its 3:21 in the damn morning....i cant sleep for shit! well im gonna try and lay down..maybe ill just stare at my clock some more...ehhhh not too fun but hey its better then writing to nothing....no one is online for me to talk to lol! lates |
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| This is Interesting... |
[Mar. 4th, 2004|08:38 pm] |
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| |  okay | ] |
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| | Metallica-Enter Sandman | ] |
So ya....this is my first entry so far....i dont have much to say right now other then SUCK A CHEETAS DICK!!!! Wesley Willis rocks! BEYATCH! |
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